Surprisingly my atheism was not a life long affair. It was through reading and critical thinking that I became the very atheist I am today. Perhaps I was indoctrinated too late, or I just wasn’t settled in the religion I was given, or maybe it was all of the contradictory ideas in the bible. Now you may have read a lot of the arguments about why the bible isn’t true, but this time I am going to fill in some cracks that have been left untapped. They might seem minute to many people. But creeks are rivers when you are small, and I would not be who I am today if I had first not seen these small cracks, which led me to finding the bigger ones.
Unlike many people who try and religiously criticize me, I have read the bible. Enough to know that I can pick out parts of it that would turn your stomach. The whole of the bible is a curious mess. It goes from creation, to floods, from food, to murder and rape. It takes juts and spikes in form. There is no complete sense to be made of the bible. If you read it cover to cover you will see it is not so much a history book, as badly written novel.
At a very early age I began to question my father about the bible. We would have regular conversations. My mind was always curious about real life versus what the bible said. One of my favorite things, as so many people know, is Dinosaurs. They always have been since my dad bought me my first T-Rex model to put together. He was large, and green, and his mouth was filled with long sharp teeth. He had short arms and only a couple of fingers. His back legs were massive, and this biped was the most fierce Dinosaur known to date. I was awe struck. We put it together, and every weekend after that he got me another type of Dinosaur to assemble. Soon I had an entire collection. I had a Stegosaurus, Pterodactyl, Brachiosaurus, and others that I made a whole Jurassic world out of. One of my special treasures my dad brought home to me was petrified wood. It made my little dino world complete.
It also sparked the question to my dad, why are the Dinosaurs not in the bible? This conversation happened a lot. I never bought the idea that humans and Dinosaurs could have lived together. My dad explained that the bible talks about there being giants in those days. Unless David fought Goliath the T-Rex though, it didn’t seem plausible.
Speaking of giants, though, that was another thing we never found evidence for. I wondered how there could be giant people, or demons could have sex with mortal women, and create them, but there are no giants today. In fact there has never been a giant human fossil found. Though there are many photo shopped pictures of them. It is one of those stories that didn’t quite fit in the bible. How would one rock kill a giant man, even with the perfect shot, and what had he really done? He was supposed to be evil by birthright, and in what deeds, well I sure don’t know. One thing is certain there is no evidence for this giant man. There is no evidence David wasn’t the real monster. After all it seemed that they hated Goliath over land and just because of who he was.
So this left two holes in the biblical story of history. Ones that I could never quite buy, even as a young girl. The next one was a tale from the bible about what lied beyond the garden of Eden. The bible claimed that in each of the four prongs of the Nile river, god had placed certain gems, or precious metals. My father having a degree in forestry had many books on various species, and on minerals as well. I often picked them up and spent hours leafing through them. Now, it may be true that the precious gems and metals were found in the Nile, but they were found in other places as well. The descriptive nature of the books my father had told of how gems were created in the earth. It also explained how they were man made, almost to the same quality, but the difference is visible to the trained eye. To this day I can pick out a synthetic gem from a real one. That is because the book explained the amount of pressure needed to create specific gems, and why they looked like they do, not only when man made but natural made as well.
When I looked at the geological makeup of the world, one thing did not fit. How is it that the bible made it seem that there was gold and gems in only certain areas, but somehow there were veins of them in other lands. Wouldn’t that mean that at one time all the lands had been connected? It fascinated me how this whole land, and any others where they were found were quite missing from the biblical story. What I did note was a pattern that seemed to follow pressure lines and volcanic activity, which was strange to me, since the bible credited god.
When it came to Noah and the flood, I was not as concerned about how the Dinosaurs did not make it on the boat, as I was the fact that god killed everyone on earth. Even the babies, and all the animals and plants. The biggest problem that I found with this story though, was the timing. How could it rain for 40 days and 40 nights covering the whole of the earth? Where did the water all come from? It made no sense for there to be enough water to cover the whole earth, and it can all dry up. The bible states, “God opened the flood gates of heaven.” So that must mean that there was enough water stored in the “sky” that could flood down and cover even the tallest mountain. Yet on a sunny day there was none of this to be found. Where did all the water go back to, and how was this even possible?
After the flood there would not have been trees for years, the salty water would have killed off all plant life and made it impossible for anything to grow, and the animals would have been starving, so would the humans have been, since there was only seven of each of the clean animals, and two of the unclean. Which meant that there would be nothing for everyone to eat for a long time. Also how would one family repopulate the whole earth, without large amounts of incest?
Even as a child I found the bible to be one contradiction after another. Most of the stories seemed a bit twisted, scary and downright impossible. Just as dragons living in the waters of the deep. Unicorns that had never been found. Dinosaurs that couldn’t be explained. Families that somehow were responsible for the whole human population, tribes that lived far from where the bible stated, giants which never seemed to be found, and a geological makeup that didn’t fit what we do know about the world.
What I now know as an adult is the scientific facts. But this is what a kid could do with their brain. Now imagine grown adults believing every word of the bible. That is a lot of thinking for one kid, and shows how little some people choose to think as adults. Weather it be for comfort reasons, or just indoctrination it shows that they must stop rationalizing. With a little evidence, some rational thinking, and curiosity a child can process thoughts which might seem childish to another adult, but are pretty complex for a kid. Why is it so profoundly hard for other adults to do the same thing. The bible is a lot of things, but it isn’t historical fact, though there is some history in it, and it is not a moral guide, because most of it is highly immoral.